20 Years And a Taylor Swift Moment - This is My Last Entry, Goodbye...

 

This is it, it has arrived, my 20th birthday. I'm not a teenager anymore, and we should all know what that means: I can't blog here anymore, and this will be my last entry.

It's really sad to write this entry, and I can feel that the tears will come sooner or later, and more likely sooner rather than later. I've grown so attached to this blog. It's been my escape, my emotional and creative outlet, for more than two years, since July 5th, 2010. When I missed America the most, my blog was there. When I fought with my friends, I always had my blog. I've written when I'm angry, I've written when I'm sad, and I've written about things that make me happy and excited. I always knew this day had to come, that I couldn't keep writing forever. But at 17, 20 seemed so far away. And now, all of a sudden, the day's here.

It's heartbreaking. I don't understand those people that can just stop blogging like that and then delete their blog. I can never delete my blog, I need it, like a diary. I may not visit it often, but I'll still have it for when I need it. When I feel like revisiting the memories.

I've been blogging anonymously for 794 days. Well, make that 793, because today is the day that comes to an end. Oh God, and there we go with the tears! I'm really too emotional, I get too attached to material things, as well as people.

My name is Julie, and this is what I look like:


Summer after America, when I started this blog...


Later that fall, practicing different makeup for the Lady Gaga concert I went to!


With my Polish sister Agnieszka in Warsaw last summer...


My profile picture on Facebook after July 22., 2011


 
In Kenya with chamelions!


Practicing photography with flashes and light in Uganda... That's the hair that took 8 hours to braid!


Bungee jumping in Jinja, Uganda - that there is the Nile...


Back in Norway with my boyfriend Suleiman, school trip to Svolvær in Lofoten


With a friend of mine this August after moving to Trondheim and starting university.

When I was in America I was blogging on this website: juliekristineiusa.blogg.no - Yeah, I know, I choose long blog names. Well, I must have a habit of choosing temporary blogs. That one I didn't at all get attached to, though... It wasn't sad to quit, and when my final blog entry got interrupted because of the stupid Internet I didn't even attempt to rewrite it... But this blog has been different. It's crawled in under my skin and nailed itself to my bones and it refuses to let go...

It's sad to end this blog. I've been thinking about this specific entry for months, planning it, and I'm certain there are a whole bunch of things that I've forgotten, but oh well. It is what it is. And I'll still be blogging, just using a different name and a different platform: From now on, I'll be a Tumblr-girl (click to enter page)!

I hope to hear from you all on my new blog. You've been great readers. I'll miss you. 

I smile and try to mean it, and let myself let go... ~ Mika

♥ The Norwegian (No Longer) Teenager

PS: A "Taylor Swift Moment" is a moment where you just feel like listening to her music and you identify with her lyrics.

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around
And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to

 

 

Entering 20

Entering 20 listening to Summer Paradise by Simple Plan. Will write another entry tomorrow, explaining everything... Enjoy the song meanwhile!

 

 

♥ The Norwegian ... whatever I am now, but I'll still write Teenager

Wants from eBay

Covers/cases for Samsung Galaxy S2


Classy


Cute


Fun


Retro


The blue ones - I heart blue!


 ♥ The Norwegian Teenager 

OMFG

Would you look at that price?!?!?!

$899.99 

♥ The Norwegian Teenager



 

There's Still Hope!


Weather forecast for tomorrow... There's hope for a liiiiittle bit of sun! Tomorrow is my birthday. My 20th birthday. It's never rained on my birthday - mom said it's because I was born on a sunny Sunday. Apart from the yest I was in Seattle - but then it was sunny in my hometown, still. Last year was little grey... But there's still hope for tomorrow!

♥ The Norwegian Teenager 

Cravings for Cream... Ice Cream...

Tell me something... What's the point of me working out yesterday when all I want to do today is to eat ice cream?! I don't have ice cream... I want to go to the store and buy ice cream... But I should not eat ice cream... I need milk... I could go to the store to buy milk... But then I might also end up buying ice cream... And that would be bad... That being said, if I buy milk I might eat cookies... I have cookies... Oreo cookies... They go great with milk... I don't want to eat them dry... My throat is itchy... Maybe they have something at the store for that... Maybe ice cream would help... Maybe not... It might be worth a try... I should work out today. My muscles are begging me not to, they're so sore from yesterday, and working out is exhausting... Then again, I need to wash my hair, and tomorrow I start at 8.15 and I'd have to get up early to wash my hair... Maybe I could work out now and wash my hair and forget about the ice cream... Maybe I could get up even earlier tomorrow, work out, and then wash my hair and eat breakfast before 8.15 when I have to be at a lecture... That's sounds possible, but also awful... But maybe it'll wake me up? Maybe I should just go to bed now... But there are children on the floor above me and they don't know how to keep quiet... This sucks. Somebody help me, ppplllllleeeeaaaaassssseeeee!!

♥ The Norwegian Teenager 

September, baby!

So it's September, it's fall, and we all know what that means: Lots of new seasons of our favorite shows to watch on TV! Here's a print screen of a sticky note on my desktop to remind me of when my favorite shows have their season premiere this fall:



Some of you may watch these shows, or some of them, at least, but here's just a little bit about each of them:

Castle

This is a show I started watching in America, because my host father loved it. It's about the famous author Richard Castle, who, because of his friendship with the mayor, who is also a big fan, gets to shadow NYPD detective Kate Becket on her cases in order to get inspiration for his new book series about Nicki Heat. Starting this fall: Season 5.

Hawaii Five-0

Navy SEAL Steve McGarrett returns to Oahu, Hawaii, to find his father's killer, and gets an offer from the governor to start his own task force, the Five-0 (as Hawaii is the 50th state in the US). Other members of his team are former Honolulu PD officer Chin Ho Kelly, his cousin Kono Kalakaua, who is frech out of the academy, and actually still in training when she goes undercover on their first case, and Danny Williams, a police officer from New Jersey who moved to Hawaii to be closer to his daughter - whose mother and new husband moved there. Starting this fall: Season 3.

NCIS: Los Angeles

(Kind of ironic how I haven't seen the original NCIS, though...). The Naval Criminal Investigation Service's Office of Special Projects take on undercover operations in LA. We follow agents G. Callen, Sam Hanna, Kelsi Blye, and others as they solve intricate cases involving military victims and/or criminals. Starting this fall: Season 4.

Criminal Minds

This group of profilers give us insight into the Behavior Analysis Unit of the FBI. They catch criminals by analysing their background, create a profile based on behavior, and travel all over the country to catch psychopaths and serial killers. Starting this fall: Season 8.

The Big Bang Theory 

The young woman Penny moves into an apartment in Pasadena, California, works and the Cheese Cake Factory as a waitress and dreams of becoming a famous actress. Her neighbors turn out the be two socially awkward physicists named Sheldon Cooper and Leonard Hoffstadter. Other main characters are Raj Koothrappali and Howard Wolowitz, all four of whom work at the same university. Penny shows the guys how little they know about life outside the laboratory. Starting this fall: Season 6.

Grey's Anatomy

The proffecional and personal lives of surgical interns and their supervisors at Seattle Grace Hospital. Central characters are Meredith Grey, her husband Derek Shepherd, her sister Lexie Grey, her best friend Christina Yang and her husband Owen Hunt, and his best friend from Afghanistan, Teddy Altmann, who's also Christina's teacher. Furthermore there's Derek's best friend Mark Sloan, his friend Callie Torress whom he has a baby with, and her wive Arizona Robins. Then there's Jackson Avery, April Kepner, and Alex Karev, the old Chief of Surgery Richard Webber, and my alltime favorite character: Miranda Bailey. So as you can see: A lot of complicated relationships, hence, a lot of drama. Starting this fall: Season 9.

 

I am SO excited for that week of September to arrive! Anyone with me?

♥ The Norwegian Teenager 

 

Inspiration

 

 

♥ The Norwegian Teenager

 

PS: My cold is much better. The only thing bothering me now is my nose, which is running and itching. It's really annoying. Plus I'm very hungry. I feel like I just ate breakfast, but looking at the clock it has actually been a while... Maybe I should get some lunch... Not that there's much to eat around here, but you know...



Cold

So I woke up this morning with what I believe is the worst cold I've ever had. It was a crappy night where I couldn't sleep due to coughing and my stuffed nose and freezing and then burning up, once I woke up because I couldn't breathe! I somehow managed to sleep until 11 though, after which I got up, drank a glass of 1000 mg vitamin c, and called my mom. I know, I'm nearly 20 years old and a cry baby. I always call my mom when I get sick. It's a weakness of mine. She used to make me breakfast and bring me tea when I was sick, and now I have to do that myself... Exhausting. So I've had two meals and a bowl of fruit today. And lots and lots of tea. 

I'm exhausted. My ears have dots in them. My nose is stuffed and my temperature keeps changing. Looking forward to a great Sunday tomorrow!

♥ The Norwegian Teenager 

Anonymous Lyrics of the Fifteenth Century

How should any cherry
Be withoute stone?
And how should any dove
Be withoute bone?

How should any brere
Be withoute rind?
How should I love my lemman
Without longing?

When the cherry was a flowr.
Then hadde it no stone.
When the dove was an ey,
Then hadde it no bone.
 

When the briar was unbred,
Then hadde it no rinde.
When the maiden hath that she loveth,
She is without longinge.

(Source: The last four stanzas of I have a Young Sister, anonymous lyrics of the fifteenth century. Typed up as written in The Norton Anthology of Poetry, 5th edition) 

A lovely poem I came across in my poetry bible from my Drama and Poetry class. I chose not to write the first three stanzas, because they are so different... The first three are about a sister of the "I" in the poem, but these last four seem more like a declaration of love, don't you think? Opinions on the poem?

♥  The Norwegian Teenager

Print-screen of the Future

 

I hereby challenge you all to tell me what this is and where you find it!

♥ The Norwegian Teenager 

 

Relationship - A Fulltime Job

My boyfriend surprised me with a really sweet text message this afternoon when I was struggling with keeping my eyes open while reading Studying Literature (a book in my proficiency class). Among other things he told me that, it's so sweet of you to always keep our relationship on tops [...] I miss you beyond explanation and I hope once I finish this contract we can sit down and chat till dawn. [...] Kisses honey, love you always and forever. So sweeet!

The contract he's talking about is an electrical engineering job he's been working on for weeks, if not months, and it's due sometime soon, early September I think. While he's been working on that we haven't been able to skype, only a couple of real short phone calls, sent a few texts and some facebook talks. It's a huge job so I imagine he must be exhausted, but it'll be worth it when the bonus arrives in his bank account, I guess, haha. 

It's not easy, keeping up a long distance relationship. Hell, I've only had one real long relationship that wasn't long distance (8 months, which Boyfriend and I have passed now, yayii!). A lot of teens and young adults don't realize that, for a relationship to work, you have to fight for it, just as hard and sometimes even harder than you fought to get the relationship in the first place! To have a boyfriend or a girlfriend is time-consuming, it's hard work, but it pays off as well, and when it's with the right person, you should be willing to do whatever it takes! Yes, it's a fulltime job, but hell, if it wasn't, would you consider your significant other a hobby, then? Think about how you would feel, being looked upon as just something to fill up the schedule with. In my opinion, a lot of people give up to easy. 

I love you, Boyfriend :* And that concludes the moralizing speech of the day, and I gotta get back to my studies (ex. fac. this time...).

 



 

♥ The Norwegian Teenager

But She Can Hardly Breathe...

I don't know what to do with my life right now. I live in a big city that I feel so free in during the day, but so terrified of when the stars come up. The past two weeks have been really stressful with parties, making friends, attending some classes we didn't really understand the meaning of... I miss my photo classes from last year. I miss eating food I didn't have to prepare myself first. I miss my friend there. Most of all I miss my boyfriend, whom I have not seen for 15 and a half weeks. I miss dull morning assemblies and bad tasting coffee. I miss making pictures. I miss arguing with my classmates. I miss arguing with my boyfriend and me walking off pissed, and then making up next recess. I miss living in a bubble. Right now everything is just... Chaos.

 

 

♥ The Norwegian Teenager

 

Flying on New Wings

 

 

Those who know me and have been reading this blog before, you should know this necklace well. I first showed its photograph in this entry, the necklace modelled is my back-then boyfriend's. He gave me one of my own for my 19th birthday, and I showed it in this entry with my blue converse. That's the necklace to the right on the photo above, which unfortunately broke while I was at work this summer. You can see it, on the wing, the ring where the necklace goes through, it's broken. Well, my ex is not a douche and I carry no grudge for our break-up at all, in fact I think he's a really nice guy, and he bought me a new wing, the one to the left, which I got today when we met for the first time in over a year. The past two hours have been a couple of good ones, we've talked a lot about the past year, especially about my school and travels. And I have a new, perfect wing now. And another friend in this city is added to my list.

Opinions on the necklaces? They do have a special meaning to me (and to him), it's not just for prettiness. Just to put that out there.

 

♥ The Norwegian Teenager 

 

Enchanted - Wonderstruck

Taylor Swift has just launched her new perfume, Wonderstruck - the beginning of something magical, and blogg.no is giving it away to a handfull of lucky people!

I have been a huge fan of Taylor since 2009 when I first heard the song White Horse, and then my favorite back then: Love Story. Love Story is still one of my favorites, along with Haunted, Back to December, If This Was A Movie, Teardrops On My Guitar, Fearless, and, the alltime favorite: Enchanted, which is also the song played in the commercial for the perfume. I wrote parts of the lyrics to that song on a piece of paper that I gave to my boyfriend along with a letter and a personal reminder of me when we parted in May - we're in a long distance relationship right now and don't know when we'll see each other next, but we'll make it work!

This was the very first page
Not where the story line ends
My thoughts will echo your name
Until I see you again
These are the words I held back
As I was leaving too soon:
I was enchanted to meet you


♥ The Norwegian Teenager


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Stikkord:

Writing Ernest Hemingway

"There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed."
 - Ernest Hemingway

"There is no friend as loyal as a book."
 - Ernest Hemingway

"Write drunk; edit sober."
 - Ernest Hemingway

"The first draft of anything is shit."
 - Ernest Hemingway

"All good books are alike in that they are truer than if they had really happened and after you are finished reading one you will feel that all that happened to you and afterwards it all belongs to you: the good and the bad, the ecstasy, the remorse and sorrow, the people and the places and how the weather was. If you can get so that you can give that to people, then you are a writer."
 - Ernest Hemingway

"All you have to do is write one true sentence. Write the truest sentence that you know."
 - Ernest Hemingway

"Maybe...you'll fall in love with me all over again."
"Hell," I said, "I love you enough now. What do you want to do? Ruin me?"
"Yes. I want to ruin you."
"Good," I said. "That's what I want too." 
 - Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell to Arms

"When people talk, listen completely. Most people never listen."
 - Ernest Hemingway

"It is good to have an end to journey toward; but it is the journey that matters, in the end."
 - Ernest Hemingway 

"Never think that war, no matter how necessary, nor how justified, is not a crime."
 - Ernest Hemingway, Ernest Hemingway: A Literary Reference

"My aim is to put down on paper what I see and what I feel in the best and simplest way."
 - Ernest Hemingway 

"You expected to be sad in the fall. Part of you died each year when the leaves fell from the trees and their branches were bare against the wind and the cold, wintery light. But you knew there would always be the spring, as you knew the river would flow again after it was frozen. When the cold rains kept on and killed the spring, it was as though a young person died for no reason."
 - Ernest Hemingway, A Moveable Feast 

"As a writer, you should not judge, you should understand."
 - Ernest Hemingway

"I?m not brave any more darling. I?m all broken. They?ve broken me."
 - Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell to Arms 

"An intelligent man is sometimes forced to be drunk to spend time with his fools."
 - Ernest Hemingway 

"But man is not made for defeat," he said. "A man can be destroyed but not defeated."
 - Ernest Hemingway, The Old Man and the Sea 

"The hard part about writing a novel is finishing it."
 - Ernest Hemingway 

"About morals, I know only that what is moral is what you feel good after and what is immoral is what you feel bad after."
 - Ernest Hemingway, Death in the Afternoon

 "Never to go on trips with anyone you do not love."
 - Ernest Hemingway, A Moveable Feast

"Madame, all stories, if continued far enough, end in death, and he is no true-story teller who would keep that from you."
 - Ernest Hemingway 

"The most essential gift for a good writer is a built-in, shockproof, shit detector."
 - Ernest Hemingway 

"It is awfully easy to be hard-boiled about everything in the daytime, but at night it is another thing."
 - Ernest Hemingway, The Sun Also Rises

"In order to write about life first you must live it."
 - Ernest Hemingway 

"But life isn't hard to manage when you've nothing to lose."
 - Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell to Arms

"After writing a story I was always empty and both sad and happy, as though I had made love."
 - Ernest Hemingway 

"It's none of their business that you have to learn how to write. Let them think you were born that way."
 - Ernest Hemingway 

 



♥ The Norwegian Teenager



Tempting, but...



Tempting. Very tempting. But I'm being held back... I had a necklace like the one to the right, until it broke when I was at work one day in July. It sucked. I was really upset. It's no secret that my ex gave it to me, it's not something I'm going to hide, and I loved that necklace, and my boyfriend knows all about it and the story behind, and he's fine with it, so I have no problem writing about this. When the necklace broke, I posted in on Facebook. I know, I'm a social network whore. Some time went by, and I didn't really think anyone had noticed the post. Until I wished a friend of mine a good trip on summer camp - a camp which my ex was also attending. Then he wrote on my wall asking how broken the necklace was and if I needed a new one. He said the person he'd bought his own and mine from had stopped selling, but he'd see what he could do. Hence, I am reluctant to buying this one I found on ebay just short time ago. I really want it... But I don't really believe in buying it for myself. I'm secretly hoping he will buy ne a new one. Well, guess it's not so secret anymore... And I don't really know why. My mind works in wicked ways, and sometimes I think I like torturing myself to see how strong I am. Does that make me a masochist?

♥ The Norwegian Teenager 

Tea Time And What To Do When...

I fell alseep for like two hours earlier this evening, so of course, here we are, half hour past midnight, and I cannot sleep! I'm awesome... So now I'm drinking Ricola Herb Tea and hoping it will make me tired at some point... I believe Ricola is Swiss... I was talking to my gay friend from Switzerland earlier today, but he stopped answering, but I know he was going out tonight, so... I could've gone out today too, but we've been out every night since Tuesday, so I figured I'd take tonight off and join my group tomorrow instead. I wonder how long the Wine Monopoly is open on Saturdays...

So. What to do when you really want to comment on a post on someone else's facebook page, but you don't really know where you stand with that person? I mean, I haven't seen this person in more than one year, we've talked a couple of times on facebook, sent three letters, and approximately five or six text messages. But I was actually talking to person X on facebook not too long ago, and everything seemed fine, so I decided to check out X's facebook page today - you know, since I can't sleep. And I was browsing ebay looking for dream catchers which made me think of jewelry which made me think of a necklace this person gave me that was bought on exaclty ebay. Someone else had posted a with X, and I swanted to say something... But I didn't . Instead, I wrote the comment out, and then I deleted it and left X's page.

Have you ever used this strategy?
What do you do when you want to comment but are not sure whether you should?
Anyone else having problems sleeping?

♥ The Norwegian Teenager 

Trondheim Today (Pictures)

Just thought I'd share some pictures from today! The panorama picture was actually taken a couple of days ago, but the place looks the same so... Haha. Enjoy and please comment!





































♥ The Norwegian Teenager

Take a deep breath, girl, take a deep breath, just walk through the doors...

Had my first day of university today! For those who don't know, I study English at NTNU in Trondheim. And today was the very first day, where there were speeches and stands and stuff, and we met our 2nd year helpmates who showed us around a little... Am actually on my way to the city to meet them now, so I don't really have a lot of time to blog, I just wanted to announce that I am now one in a lot of students that have started the year! I'm actually super excited for this period of my life... Been waiting so long for it to arrive!

To be a little nostalgic, I listened to Taylor Swift the other day. You know her song, Fifteen? It's about starting high school, and that you don't really know what to expect, what you'll believe... I listened to it on my way to school my first day of American high school in 2009, although I was 17, but a lot of it applied... Well, I'm nearly 20 now, but I still love the song!

 

 

Going going, out to the town! See y'all laterz!

♥ The Norwegian Teenager 

Dance Dance to the Life You Wanted When You Were Only Seventeen...

So I have like a list of things that I'm going to blog about today, so brace yourselves - this could easily become a very long entry... Sorry for not blogging since last month, by the way, but I have my reasons; I'll get there in a minute.

The title of today's entry is from a song called Good Gone Girl by artist Mika. I've been kind of collecting songs that have to do with dancing lately... Have a look:

I'll dance, dance, dance, with my hands, hands, hands, above my head, head, head, like Jesus said ~ Lady Gaga, Bloody Mary

Tonight I'm not taking no calls, 'cause I'll be dancing ~ Lady Gaga, Telephone

Baby loves to dance in the dark, 'cause when he's looking she falls apart ~ Lady Gaga, Dance in the Dark

I wanna just dance, but he took me home instead, uh-oh, there was a monster in my bed... We french kissed on a subway train - he ate my heart and then he ate my brain ~ Lady Gaga, Monster

Yeah, I know, a lot of Lady Gaga... Can't tell ya enough how much I love that lady! So here's the title song for y'all:

 

 




Since Sunday up until yesterday I was in Oppdal with my family, in the very same cabin where I first started this blog. The others were there last year too, but I chose to stay behind and spend time with my now ex boyfriend instead, so I hadn't been there in two years. But yeah, we were walking in mountains and going for drives in the daytime and played Scrabble at night, so that's why I haven't been blogging these past few days. Before that, I was working. 

This past Monday was also the one month mark - the beginning of the end of this blog, so to say. It's been clear  to me for a long time now that I cannot keep blogging on this page when I turn 20, so I'll be starting a new blog then. But since it's only one month left, I figured it was about time to actually post some pictures of myself:



Me with Mount Kenya in the background...



Me getting my hair braided in Kenya... Took freaking eight hours!



Me photographing some old boat houses this summer here in Norway.

 



Summer's coming close to an end, and we all know what that equals: Yeah, that's right, school starts! I've actually been looking forward to it, since it'll be my freshman year at college... Super excited, and super nervous!

I am not one of the lucky few that live close to the university they chose to study at, however, so I'm in the process of moving now. I have one suitcase with stuff in my apartment already, but we're moving the majority of my things tomorrow. Which means, since I only got home yesterday, that I've spent today packing. And packing, and packing. There's stuff everywhere! But I'm close to an end now, I think... Some stuff left, like bathroom items I need tonight and in the morning, as well as electronics, chargers, that kind of things. Fortunately we're driving and depend only on one ferry, so we're kind of free to leave whenever, so no stress.


 

It's news time! We all know the Olympics are ongoing... Norway has, what, one medal of each, so far? Not that much, compared to the USA, who has 90 medals this season, followed by China (80). But what I wanted to talk about was Kenya and their record yesterday: David Rudisha beat both the existing world record and olympic record on the 800m men's final, beating the records set in the mid nineties, from what I've heard. Great job, and congratulations to Kenya!

Usain Bolt wants to become an American football pro now. 

Furthermore... An airplane crashed not too far from me today, into the side of a mountain or something. I do not know all the details, but last I heard the tree on board were all killed in the accident.

There are still no leads in the case where a 16 year old girl from Norway went missing night to Sunday (I believe it was). Although, it appears the sock found near a kindergarten was not hers after all.

Curiosity landed on Mars earlier this week - sure went a long way from killing the cat...

A new NASA moonlanding vessel (or whatever I should call it) has exploded. NASA claims it's part of the testing - however it cost them 3 million NOK...

Obama's lead on Mick Romney is increasing, according to CNN. Where it before was 49%-46% it is now 52-45, in Obama's favor. He's also leading in 9 out of 10 "on-the-fence" states. Evidently, people don't have faith in Romney's ability to change the economy. Obama has at least done something about it these past four years! And conservatives are in doubt whether Romney is conservative enough - but Jesus Christ, the man wants to illegalize abortion, and change the constitution so that married gay couples will lose their right to say they're married! And liberize guns, you bet. Personally: Obama all the way! 

Thousands of elephants are being killed, particularly in the central African countries, every year due to the demans of ivory. Only elephants and rhinos should wear ivory!









I am starving, so I hope I'll get some food sooon.... And then I must continue packing, and mom has promised to color my hair! Mocha Chocolate, here I come!

♥ The Norwegian Teenager 

The Distance From Here to Where You'd Be... It's Only Finger-Lengths

 

 

♪♫ I'm miles from where you are
I lay down on the cold ground
And I, I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms  ♥

 

 

♥ The Norwegian Teenager



I've always heard every ending is also a beginning, we just don't know it at the time. I'd like to believe that's true.

Ok, let's talk long distance relationships for a while. As you probably know, I am currently in one, and my chosen one is a guy three years older than me from Kenya. Some people were supprised, but my parents are ok with it and hey, you don't choose who you fall in love with, right?

Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
 
- Coldplay

My boyfriend and I, we've been together since the beginning of December, that's closing up on eight months now, but we haven't seen each other for the past almost three. It's been no walk in the park, but it hasn't been too hard, either. Until now. We did spend seven weeks apart earlier this year, when we were on (different) school trips with our classes - I with photo, he with international. We sent a few texts but that's all. Now we've had facebook and mail, and we've managed to skype a few times, but that's a little difficult since he doesn't really have a steady internet connection. I text him, but he only answers occasionaly since it costs much more for him than what I pay. So we stick to facebook, mostly. And emails.

I've been staring at this page for minutes now, without knowing how to proceed...

If there was a movie about you, it would be called I Am Overthinking This.
- Marnie, My Name Is Memory   

I have been starting to feel doubts lately. Don't get me wrong, I really do love my boyfriend, and I know that he loves me, but we're closing in on eight months. I've never had a relationship lasting more than eight months before. My last relationship was almost eight months on the day. He broke up with me in mid August last year, only ten days before I moved and when I was in the middle of a packing process. Now I'm in a packing process again, and I'm moving very soon. College starts in the middle of August. I just really want to make it through eight months. I don't want to lose this love that I have right now, and I don't think I could face another year of starting school with a broken heart, to doze through the packing and the beginning of what's supposed to be a wonderful time of my life.

These past years have all been different for me. Not like elementary and middle school where I knew the teachers and I knew the class mates and pretty much knew what would happen. In 2008 I started high school here in Norway. In 2009 I went on a student exchange to America and spent one year as high school student there. Then I returned to Norway, and in 2010 begun my senior year. And seriously, I hardly spoke my own language by that time! 2011 I started community college, or folk high school as some call it here. And now, in 2012, I'm beginning my life as a university student. My life has no consistency whatsoever. It's like ADD or something, I can never stay still in one place for too long at a time.

I find the map and draw a straight line
Over rivers, farms, and state lines
The distance from here to where you'd be
It's only finger-lengths that I see

I'm miles from where you are
I lay down on the cold ground
And I, I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms 
- Snow Patrol

My boyfriend texted me earlier this evening, "Hey darling, can you be available on chat tomorrow at 9am? I so much wanna talk to you <3". Quite simple, right? Nothing fishy about that? Just an ordinary text from a man who wants to talk to his woman. Right? So would somebody please tell me why my stomach turned into knots, my throat tightened, and my head went light and fuzzy?

So I did what I always do: Went for a walk to clear my head. Put on comfortable clothes, in this case his navy blue hoodie. Made myself a cup of tea. Dimmed the light in my bedroom and sat down on the floor. Put on some music. Started writing. Trust me, it works. Always.

I love you
I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away from far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
 
I'll stop breating if I don't see you anymore
Nickelback

Something you might not know about me, is that I've been raised in a military family. My father's been in the army since the year he turned 18, that's nearly 30 years. And you know we have an expression, right?

There's strong. And then there's army strong.

It doesn't mean that army people are stronger than other people. It's all about attitude. You set your mind on a goal, you work hard, and you achieve it. That's what we call army strong. And in this case, my goal isn't something, but someone. I'm going to work hard to keep him, and I'm not going to fail at it. That's my attitude. 

You think your days are uneventful
That no one ever thinks about you
She goes her own way, she goes her own way
You think your days are ordinary
That no one ever thinks about you
But we are all the same
And she can hardly breathe without you
- Keane

I was looking for a photograph from weheartit.com to insert here, but everything was too much of a cliché... Until I found this:



It's the latter part that made me like it, for two reasons:
1. When we make it past the 4.5 months mark, we're less likely to break up than ever!
2. 60% of LDRs work out!
 

♥ The Norwegian Teenager 

 

Hit me with some music - tell me your favorites!

I am in serious need of some new music... And I want you to tell me your favorite songs, bands, and artists! So let's get typing, people! :D

♥ The Norwegian Teenager

I got an email from a world recognized bestselling author!

I sincerely doubt that anyone reading this has heard of her, but Corinne Hofmann is the woman behind The White Masai - the writer, and the main character herself!

She went on vacation to Kenya in 1986, and moved there permanently in 1987 when she married the Samburu warrior Lketinka. They had a daughter together, and she lived like a real Maasai for four years before she fled back to Switzerland with her daughter at the end of 1990. Time went by, and she started writing the story of her exotic love and and adventure. She later wrote two more books, Back From Africa, which is about her life after her return to Switzerland, and then Reunion in Barsaloi when she had gone back to Kenya for the first time, visited her family, and helped the film crew that was making her life story a major motion picture. Her fourth book, Africa, my Passion, is currently being translated to English, and I personally can't wait to read it. It has three parts, and one is about her daugher returning to Kenya to meet her father and his family for the first time!

Anyways... I managed to find contact information, and emailed the woman whose courage, strength, and passion I hugely admire, and guess what: she emailed me back! She was writing in German, but I could understand it all when reading, and with a little help from a dictionary I've translated her message into English as precisely as I can:

Dear (my name)

I allow myself to write in German, as it is easer for me. Thank you very much for your wonderful feedback. It makes me happy to hear that you enjoyed Kenya so much and that you can empathize with my story. I'm convinced that you sometime will get the chance to return. Next week I am travelling to family again and I am really excited. Kenya is simply exceptional.

I wish you a good time and all love and good,
cordially,
Corinne Hofmann 

 






♥ The (extremely happy!) Norwegian Teenager


 

Photo: The Sun Must Set to Rise (self on balcony)

Here we go: A photo of me! At long last...

 

 

 

♪♫ When she was just a girl
She expected the world
But it flew away from her reach
So she ran away in her sleep
And dreamed of paradise
Everytime she closed her eyes

Life goes on, it gets so heavy
The wheel breaks the butterfly
Every tear a waterfall
In the night, the stormy night, she'd close her eyes
In the night, the stormy night, away she'd fly

And so lying underneath those stormy skies
She'd say, "Ooh, I know the sun must set to rise"
This could be paradise... ♥

 


 

 

♥ The Norwegian Teenager

Photo: Gone Are The Days of Summer (shoe project)

Does anybody remember my shoe project? If not, have a look in the photography category, I'm sure you'll find it!

Well, I've been thinking of how to do a flip flop photo... First I wanted to hanf them all up in a bush in the winter - but I needed snow for that, which I never really found... Then I thought about lining them up like footprints, but I'd need a beach for that, which we don't really have a lot of around here, and those to be found are small and messy... So I ended up with this: a line of all of my flip flops on the balcony! It must have looked silly to passer-bys - me standing on top of the roof taking pictures of something they probably didn't see... Haha! 

And since the summer is so close to ending (I'm getting ready to move out and start college, myself), I thought the title of this entry would be a nice title for the collage I made.

 

 

 

♪♫ Gone are the days of summer
We couldn't change it if we tried
But why would we want to?
Let's go where we got to;
Our paths will cross again in time ♥ 

 

 

♥ The Norwegian Teenager

 

Other Hairdo Pictures - NCIS LA

In an episode of NCIS that was linked together with Hawaii Five-0 that I watch, I found this girl whose hair I also really liked (most are print screens, sorry abour bad quality):















♥ The Norwegian Teenager



Whoops! I broke the Internet...

Print screen of a message I got when I clicked on something-or-other...

LOL of the day!

♥ The Norwegian Teenager 

Want: Manga Hairdo

I haven't cut my hair since March now, that's four months ago, and in that time my hair has grown down to my shoulder, my bangs are far too long, and frankly I do not look good with long hair. It's not too bad yet, but my host mom in America would freak out if she saw it get any longer, haha. So I've been thinking about what to do with it... I'm going to colour it mocha chocolate (which turns out pretty dark on my hair) again before school starts in two and a half week, but I don't know if I'm going to cut it. I mean, what if it turns out a disaster? I've had bad hair before, but then it was around people who already knew me. Maybe I better just wait a little longer... It's not like I have split ends and hideously dry hair yet or anything.

So I wanted to show you an idea. I've had hair almost like this before, this short in the neck anyways. So have a look at manga character Nana Osaki!

















I love love love the song playing when I open >>this<< window - but how can I get it, other than by recording it with my phone (which turned out pretty bad)? I tried the audiotag website and it came up with nothing. Anyone have any idea?

♥ The Norwegian Teenager 

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