I'm Not Crazy..

all day staring at the ceiling, making friends with shadows on my wall..all night hearing voices telling me i should get some sleep because tomorrow might be good for something..hold on..feeling like im heading for a breakdown, and i dont know why..but im not crazy..

That's Unwell by Matchbox 20....And it fits right now..The past 19 nights (means since night to July 22nd, the night before I left Lake Stevens WA to fly to Norway) I have been completely unable to sleep well at night.I lie awake, think, cry, try to sleep, fail, listen to music, read books, and when I finally at some point in time fall asleep somehow, I have the weirdest dreams that are either hella scary or make no sense, and I always wake up feeling totally not rested at all. Does anyone know what I could do to help myself? I feel like there's a piece of me missing, lost somewhere, but I don't know where or how to get it back, or even if I want it back. I keep thinking that something somewhere along the road went wrong, but where or what or with who only God knows..Or maybe I'm scared of admiting something to myself, I don't know anymore..And for the record; I don't like feeling this clueless! I'm not used to it..4.0 right here, always amongst the top students in every class, always the good kid..And now I feel so clueless and restless and who-knows-what-else-less..

This is a new song I found when youtubing today, enjoy it because I do(:

One song I've also been listening to a lot lately is this one thatI'm about to post below..The singer is Owl City, thesong is Vanilla Twilight, and there is absolutely nothing about it that's not perfect. Just wait and see..

♥ The Norwegian Teenager

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a teenager with thoughts

a teenager with thoughts

19, rland

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