I Am Not Innocent, But I Am Not Afraid

I think this song is beautiful. I feel like I can relate to the lyrics. Or could. Or something. To me, that is important. People ask me what music I listen to, and I answer that it depends on so many things. If I were to answer truthfully, I'd probably end up saying "nothing you've heard of" - because most of the time, that is the case. Secondhand Serenade is not familiar to most people. But they are really good with the lyrics, and to me that is the most important thing most of the time.

All I can say, is I am not afraid
Of the world that I have tried to push away
I fight everyday
But I am to blame
I am not innocent
But I am not afraid

Another song by them that I really like, is this one:

I might have been a little too emotional lately, but when I was listening to this song earlier today, it got me thinking about my friends, about my life, and that I'm moving in the fall. I'm feeling like I'm pushing people away sometimes. A defence mechanism in my brain, perhaps? I hope that my friends know that I don't mean to do that. I hope they know that I want them around. I'm not saying that I can't live without them because I can, but I really don't want to. Like C. S. Lewis said, "Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival."

I'm graduating from high school in the spring. In the fall, I'm moving more than 900 km up north. My friends are moving also. I'm hoping it won't destroy our friendship. Not before that, not during that, not afterwards, wherever we end up.

You can say goodbye
To all the things that you have ever known
You can say goodbye
And leave behind the life that you have grown
What's the point?
You try to start from scratch but get let down
You can say goodbye
Just to realize there's no one left around

I don't want to one day realize that when it's time for me to say goodbye, that there's no one left around me to say goodbye to because I've pushed them all away.

"When we were children, we used to think that when we grew up we would no longer be vulnerable. But to grow up is to accept vulnerability, to be alive is to be vulnerable." - Madeleine L'Engle

♥ The Norwegian Teenager

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20.02.2011 kl.20:12

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